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June 2013

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LIFE UPDATE: UNI EDITION

This university thing takes over your life!
So I am definitely prone to bouts of depression when I’m stressed,just hope I don’t relapse…and get clinically depressed again…

Sometimes life overwhelms me,I have a long reaction time so…I get sad about it later…

Like when Aunty Vivien was about to die,I was numb…now is when it has hit me.

Or when after my brother died and I just broke down in tears 7 months later because that’s when it REALLY hit me.

Or like the fact that Zikhalo pulled a Judas/Chanda on me…even though I saw it coming,it still hurts….though at first I was like “screw that mother!”….it made me feel worthless like I’m not good enough to be cared about that way. You know? Like,I’m just supposed to be exchanged or am some kind of stand in or just those soya pieces you buy when u dnt have cash for chicken but when chicken comes you ditch the soya (unless ure vegan).

Its not funny ala!

 Would have been a heart break if I had a heart to break. JK,it takes a lot to break my heart lol, it was a jab to my self esteem….so I guess I’m not as amazing as he said I was…or maybe I’m not amazing enough?

It’s all good….even though it doesn’t feel like,it is all good.

The darkest hour’s just before the day.

Remember March 8 2012. God restored me. Psalm 71

Jun 9, 2013
#life #boys #Crushes #updates
Jun 8, 2013

April 2013

9 posts

Apr 27, 201344 notes
Apr 27, 20135 notes
#updates

I’m searching for a deep connection, my heart is open, I need that sweet affection, I’m so true it’s past your comprehension, hurt once, so my intentions aren’t clear, it’s fear that holds me back, and I don’t know who to trust, I don’t know if I should take a chance, because the pain will be just too much, I feel heroic, I want a happy ending, I mean, I want someone special to compliment me, I’m down for you, so notice me, lets put our pasts aside, and work together to build a future, just you and I.

Apr 21, 20132 notes
Another HAIR/LIFE update

Shame all my posts have been about my hair journey lol XD oh weelll…
I’m thinking about big chopping earlier than planned but we’ll see…transitions huh…

I’m in university now…pretty soon school will take over my life!

Apr 21, 2013
#updates
Honey Molasses: My Uterus & I | A Cautionary Tale ? → neffyfrofro.tumblr.com

neffyfrofro:

Following on from my tweet earlier, here’s my story :) At first I wasn’t sure if I should be speaking about my uterus on the account that it might make people uncomfortable, embarrassed blah blah blah but then it hit me! Every woman has a uterus and everyone knows we have a uterus so what’s the…

Never happened to me but I love her openness!

Apr 13, 2013133 notes
#updates
Life Update

  1. Going to Kitwe in a day
    Have to do some more shopping
  2. Moving out to a new place, I’m 19 and I’m moving out of their house!
    (I’ll be back lol)
  3. Still quite crazy about  a boy
  4. going crazy because of a boy
  5. Keeping the faith
  6. Welcome to the future
Apr 8, 2013
#updates
5 Warning Signs of Bad Natural Hair Products

We always wonder what products will work those miracles we hear other natural haired women talk about. One tells you that she started using product a and all the frizz is gone. Another tells you that she started using product Q and now her hair is suuuuuper sooooft. *SIGH* There are no miracle products o! 

However, there are some tips you can follow to keep you from buying products that will do more harm to your hair than good. Thanks to JC of Natural Haven, we have some tips here. Check out BGLH for details. So products to avoid include:

1. Any water based conditioner which does not list water as the first ingredient


2. Any product with fragrance in the first five ingredients

3. Any shampoo which does not contain an oil or silicone

4. Any product which is not a leave-in and contains mineral oil in the first five ingredients

5. Any product with an ingredient list that is missing or incomplete or too short

So what do you avoid when buying your hair products?

Keep it natural!

source:http://onaturals.blogspot.com/2012/12/5-warning-signs-of-bad-natural-hair.html

Apr 4, 2013
#fashionandbeauty
My Mine

Memories sinkin’, deep in, leakin’ in my mine,
All of the time tried to forget you,
Thought I could get you to be mine.
Memories sinkin’, deep in, leakin’ in my mine,
All of the time I can’t forget to,
Tried to forget you in my mine

Pretend to not have the patience,
Pretend that there is enough time for waiting,
Remembering when we kept it a basic,
I wanna go back so that I could taste it
What do I care for?
You are not there anymore?
I was not careful,
And its all your fault,
You let me fall

I’ll be all right,
I will be just fine
I’ll be OK,
Once you get out my mind

Apr 3, 20135 notes
#jheneaiko #love #crushes #updates #vault

tsk…

Apr 1, 2013
#sad #updates

March 2013

15 posts

Mar 31, 2013
Mar 30, 201390 notes
#fashionandbeauty
http://blackgirllonghair.com/2012/02/actress-thandie-newton-talks-about-her-transition-to-natural-hair/ → blackgirllonghair.com

Thandie Newton Transitioned! :D yay!!!

Mar 30, 2013
#fashion #fahionandbeauty
Random Thoughts & shopping List

I’ve still got so many people to visit but I’m so broke!
Anyway,last night I had a weird dream and I was telling myself to buy organic products for my hair…lol

So here’s my shopping list….

2 spray bottles
2 oil bottles
1 Organics Shampoo
1 Organics Rinse out conditioner
1 Leave-in conditioner(the one I have don’t know it’s name :p)
1 Extra-Virgin Olive Oil
1 Pure Castor Oil
1 Pure coconut oil
1 Pure glycerin
1 Aloe Vera Juice
(my moisturizer is water)
1 Ecostyler gel….

That’s been my hair regimen the passed 3 months and it has worked so far,used to use shea butter but its expensive!
Need to print this out lol

Mar 30, 2013
#fashionandbeauty #fashion
http://www.longhaircareforum.com/showthread.php?t=546331 → longhaircareforum.com

3 year transition inspiration…Let’s Go!

Mar 29, 2013
#fashion #updates #fashionandbeauty
Mar 28, 2013
#updates #naturalhair
MAJOR Hair/Life Update

Okay so,I remember how I was all up on twitter ranting and ranting about how natural hair isn’t for everyone(which it isnt,it is not) but then I realized I never really got to fully take care of my natural curls/kinks…so….

I have made a conscious decision to long-term transition,for like 3 years or until I am comfortable with the length of my hair….

That being said,I am not ruling out the possibility of me texlaxing my hair…I don’t like the bone-straight look anymore…

My curls are actually sexier than I remember…hehe
So,I’m not going to retouch my hair in July or February but I might do length checks depending on my progress…

I was inspired to long term transition by Laila Jean Washington a.k.a fusion of cultures,she did a two year transition then BC’d,my cousin Shiloh,who is like 1 and has the biggest,curliest fro! And a few other long term transitioners i saw online who Big chopped and who didn’t big chop but kept working with the two textures.

God willing,I pull this off….and I’m going to be so busy at school,I’ll probably just be living in braids for the whole or most of the transition lol

Here’s laila’s youtube: http://www.youtube.com/user/FusionofCultures

and her fotki if you want to see here transition http://members.fotki.com/Laila-Jean/about/

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This is going to be a lot of HARD work…but I know with time I will get the hang of it….

Mar 28, 20132 notes
#updates #relaxedhair #naturalhair #texlax #change
Quick Hair Update

For my deep conditioner last week I used all natural product,honey, glycerin,coconut oil and sour milk and let me tell you,it was beautiful!
First my hair smelt like a Bounty Chocolate Bar lol and my hair was silky smooth! When I went to braid it yesterday the woman didn’t have to tear through my new growth!
Matter of fact I slept while she was braiding it!lol

Try it out y’all~

Mar 26, 2013
#updates #relaxedhair #naturalhair #texlax
The Weave Manual → confessionsofablogvixen.com

Maintaining Weaves during protective styling

Mar 21, 20131 note
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March Hair Update

The other day I went to visit Lexina and she was like “some of your hair broke off because of the dye” and I was lost because I don’t know whatever the hell she was talking about my hair was in a bun so how could she see my ends?… I don’t know,she should show me where it “cut” because everything looks fine.

I have about an inch and something of new growth just as planned but I’m not re-touching it til July.
Which brings me to my next point,since my school year has been extended, my 1st length check will be in July and not June and my hair journey check point will be in February of 2014 and not December of this year.

And that’s when my hair will go back to black….

See you in July!

Mar 21, 2013
#updates
Mar 18, 2013
9 Wonderful Things About My Time At Roma Girls

1. I ALWAYS had the best classmates both in Junior and Senior Secondary classes(High school)
When I got to Roma Girls in grade 8,I was put in 8H,for Home Economics and let me tell you that class was wild! Was with them up to grade 9. They were so hilarious and we were always in trouble with teachers for making the silliest comments (what do you expect from 13 year olds?). 

And in grade 9,we used to spend all manual work time at the stairs near the teachers’ flats that we called the chipinda (bedroom) discussing the troubles of life and telling each other so many stories. We had a real comradeship and love for each other.

In high school,I was placed in 10A ….oh my gosh that class! lol They made so much uncontrollable noise! We were always getting lectured by prefects and teachers about how we were the noisiest A class in the school history (A’s are the nerds of the school apparently).

Nevertheless,they were some of the smartest girls I have ever met in my life. As well as the funniest people you could ever meet!

Addictive girls,I could never get enough of them,the best friends I’ve had so far. Despite some problems in 12th grade I love them all whole heartedly…ALL!

2. Sister Keiran(sp)
Sister Keiran IS Roma Girls OK, forget what you heard lol That woman and manual work! She always followed up! Came to your class and called you out! Hommie don’t play! lol

3. Manual Work

Hated that time of day with a passion but now that I think about it,it kept our school habitable. Everyday at 13:50 everybody (except grade 12’s at some point) reported for manual work! Cleaning every corner of the school! Manual work changed every term and some people sold food in the Dining Hall but everybody did something! For the majority of my stay at Roma Girls I was mostly cleaning my classroom(s),though I swept the stairs at the teachers flats in grade 9. Hardest Manual Work I’ve ever had!

4. Crazy Prefects

Until my friends became prefects,I thought all of them were insane and always looking for trouble. To be honest some of them were total bitches,like I just have to be honest,no wonder I didn’t want to be one(I can be an extreme bitch sometimes,no lie ppl would have suffered lol)

Each year of prefects always came with some kinda drama,my first year they were always on my case about my hair(will get to that in a moment). And during inspection,they took whatever was pretty,even if it was allowed at school like Vaseline(really -_-) LUNATICS!

5. Natural Hair

As part of the school rules you were not allowed to have chemically treated hair and if you were found wanting you would be sent home.

So yes,I had natural hair for 5 years like a good school child(after being harassed by prefects to get my relaxer out) ,it was my best and worst hair days but still natural hair was not for me. And no I didn’t big chop nor did I transition. I “washed” out the relaxer with Mosi and dyed my hair jet black!

6. Crazy Teachers

Teachers at Roma Girls had character,no lie! My class teacher in grade 8 was Mrs Mupinde,when we got there we were told that she is a mad dog! lol(Actually she called herself that) but she was okay though she would say the most crazy things and called the teachers in the science department(including herself) animals.

The student teachers were also something else! In grade 8 and 9 they did what they came for but the ones that you meet in high school are something else,especially the male student teachers lol

In grade 11,we had this student teacher Mr Siame,that man was for chikwela! He always came to our class even when it was not his lesson,even at break time! Just to chat with girls fibi! lol He asked over-personal questions. He asked Madaliso to hug him on Awards Day! haa I laughed at her lol

And Mr Sondashi Math teacher,that man would come to our class high as a kite on weed like,damn. Okay he would get drunk! Especially when Mr Hamudobe was around,that man would get hammered! At least he sobered up in grade 12.

Haa,I almost forgot Mr Kaela,when we were in grade 10 he came to our class everyday to ask people(Liness) to help him with work in the computer room. It was legit (for us anyway) he paid us once (KR 5)…then in grade 11 his sins caught up with him and he left the school. 

Mr Mutati,such a weird short man with a very loud voice,the Matero boys know him so no need to explain more. He always complained about teaching girls…because of what happened with Keezy lol

7. Mass

I always dreaded going for mass but once I got in the service it was very  powerful

8. Variety Shows/Awards Day/Joint Meetings

Roma Girls always had to have some reason to party okay,when Mr Kaela was the DJ at Awards Day or when CLC would have variety shows. Party,party,party! We would be dancing in our seats if we couldn’t get up and dance.

Awards Day…I never went for the last one because of “sickness” but I always enjoyed looking at people in other classes get a lot of awards,I don’t know…it’s like why did people enjoy watching Michael Jackson get 8 grammys in one night. It’s incredible,seeing people getting rewarded for smart work(unless they’re in your class).

Joint meetings. Roma Girls is married to Matero Boys! We always had joint meetings with Matero Boys in every club,except debate because it was regional, JETS and LEO. But CLC,Youth Alive,Press Club, Chess…can they miss?

I don’t even get how we are married? How did it even happen?lol Today,majority of my male compadres are ex Matero Boys. 

That’s how deep things are,from the creation of both schools. lol

9. Drama

An all girls school is bound to be full of drama! Mrs Mupinde wearing skinny jeans,mass numbers of people fainting,rumours of lesbians and people that are lesbian proclaiming their love for another girl in the car park (” Vicky,if you don’t love me I’ll die”),fights (yes girls beat each other up),Big Jayne stealing, the Big 5 getting food from the DH,the Dope girls vandalizing the labs, teachers dating students…drama,drama,drama…

I miss that school lol

Mar 13, 2013
#updates #vault
Hair Journey Woes

Dammit! My hair is so annoying sometimes!

Ever since I un-braided my hair I’ve been afraid of breakage every waking moment.!

My hair at the extreme back was extremely uneven so I trimmed the longest bits but that okay.

Though my hair was breaking at the beginning now its just shedding but I was discouraged a little.

Anyway,plan to get my hair re-braided end of this month. 

Mar 13, 2013
#updates
A Random Thought

The love of God is an everlasting love because of this I am assured of joy. Even when human beings do not think I am good enough, God thinks I’m worth His love. At the End of the day and the end of my life,that’s all that matters.


  • Just for all to know that God is first in all my thoughts,even in my worries and fears…he is my eternal assurance. Yahweh my provider.

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Mar 10, 2013
#updates #vault #love
Mar 2, 20131,073 notes
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February 2013

20 posts

Feb 26, 2013
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Feb 25, 2013
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Feb 25, 2013564 notes
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Feb 21, 2013598 notes
Viv

There will be times in life when you will learn the most important lessons in your life through pain…when that time comes never give up and hold on to your faith.

I have changed a lot over the years because of pain,no matter what I have learnt that I am strong in Christ. No matter how much I’ve changed fact remains my desire for him has not.

I know that,even in pain the next step is crystal clear and that eventually these steps will connect and I will become the person I am meant to be.

Feb 20, 2013
#updates #vault #life
Feb 16, 201322 notes

So much middle finger

Feb 16, 2013
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Feb 12, 201312 notes
Mercy

I have decided to go back to my simple existence as a single cell amoeba. Any over involvement with complex individuals has ceased hence forth.

Thank you for your attention. Guten Dag

Feb 12, 2013
#updates
TOXICITY → thoughtcatalog.com

You’re toxic I’m slipping under

Feb 11, 20131 note
#Vault #updates
Feb 10, 20131 note

Ek is so skaam, iemand begrawe my in ‘n graf!

Why did I tell him to read? Sometimes it’s like I’m two ppl!

Feb 10, 2013
Feb 10, 201315 notes
Feb 10, 201387 notes
Being ME. Africa Tag(Zambia)

As I’ve grown older I have learnt to embrace what God created me as which is African,Zambia, 100% negro. When I was a kid,I was brain washed into thinking that it was ugly to be black and have afro textured hair and brown skin and the schools I went to were full of white and biracial ppl,who never made me feel bad but I still hated being black. I thought that if your skin was dark you were ugly…for years and years and grandparents with a colonial mentality didn’t help with their language of “abasungu fye”. Then I went to Roma Girls…Something in me just changed there and I thank God for that school. At that school,just by having my hair natural…no relaxer,no synthetic braids,no weaves, I learnt that being what God made you to be is nothing to be ashamed of. It was like,at Roma Girls that’s where I found Africans,unashamed Zambians who NEVER acted like anything else but that. At my other schools I would see the black girls changing their very much Nyanja accents to sound like the mixed girls,at Roma…chinyanja was the order of the day(together with bemba,you know Lusaka),at my old schools if you ate nshima at lunch they’d mock you,at Roma ppl praised it as if it was a rare delicacy(I hate nshima tho,I just hate it naturally lol)

Apart from female empowerment,I also learnt African empowerment…of course ppl complained about Zambia,Zambians always complain but I never ever felt like I had to be sorry for being a girl and most importantly for being my bemba-nsenga,afro textured,brown skinned self.

And for that God,I’d like to thank you for taking me to Roma Girls!

Feb 8, 2013
#black #african #zambian #updates #vault
Feb 8, 2013
Feb 6, 2013
Hair Update

Finally got into my tumblr! Ah!

Well my hair journey is going to the second month and I’m so obsessed with my hair right now,I’m dreaming about it :O
Just learnt that I wasn’t sealing my hair which is better I know now because my hair is in a protective style.
Still trying to figure out what i’ll do and All the products I’ll need when I go to school.
I need wash out conditioner and argan oil like for real y’all!
But thats about it,I still have the braids in,I’ll take them out and have fresh ones added in,which will hurt like a mf but no pain,no gain.
Braids are going to be my go to hairstyle this year,might cornrow one.

Until next time Happy HHJ!

Feb 6, 20131 note
#blackhair #relaxedhair #naturalhair
Feb 5, 201388,934 notes

January 2013

15 posts

2013 Surprises and goals

So this year I have decided to embark on a healthy,long hair journey. I have never been the long haired girl and I never even thought it was possible but with the right regimen(that I accidentally stumbled upon) I think i can make it. last year,because of being broke and my dad bitching about the cost of doing my hair(which is not even that much) I decided to extend how long I will do my relaxers for and keep my hair braided most of the year and I got good results.

I still didn’t know how to moisturize and retain length fully but my hair grew and retained most of it’s length.

I didn’t realize that I was texturizing and using protective hairstyles so my hair grew to my collar bone at most (except when I accidentally chopped of my hair on the left side of my head)

This year,with all the research I’ve done,I am intending to grow my hair a full 6 inches (God willing) and have my hair grow up to bra strap length at maximum.

My goal is a low to no manipulation,no heat,no relaxer year although I might relax my hair at the 6 month point because of weather conditions.

when my hair is out,do a co-wash or deep condition the get it braided or cornrowed(depending on the amount of money I have) and keep it that way for as long as possible.

Wear my hair in buns and invest in a chitambala (satin scarf).

I don’t intend on using to many products just water,oils and hair conditioner (leave in and wash out).

My intention is to have a 12 month relaxer stretch but I might want to check the length at 6 months so,we’ll see what happens. I’m choosing to texlax as opposed to having it bone-straight because i don’t like that look so I’ll be buying my own relaxer before i go to the salon and adding olive oil or castor oil or both to reduce the strength of the relaxer.

Hopefully,I am able to keep my hair braided because i’ll be at school and might end up neglecting it.

Don’t weave my hair anymore because Zambian hair stylists think your head is fake and sew it in too tight!

God willing I finally reach BSL,my next goal will be MBL.

Wish me God’s favour!

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Last length check was October 2012 before i dyed my hair red lol next length check either June 2013 or December 2013

Jan 31, 20131 note
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Jan 25, 201319 notes
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Jan 25, 201353 notes
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