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This university thing takes over your life!
So I am definitely prone to bouts of depression when I’m stressed,just hope I don’t relapse…and get clinically depressed again…
Sometimes life overwhelms me,I have a long reaction time so…I get sad about it later…
Like when Aunty Vivien was about to die,I was numb…now is when it has hit me.
Or when after my brother died and I just broke down in tears 7 months later because that’s when it REALLY hit me.
Or like the fact that Zikhalo pulled a Judas/Chanda on me…even though I saw it coming,it still hurts….though at first I was like “screw that mother!”….it made me feel worthless like I’m not good enough to be cared about that way. You know? Like,I’m just supposed to be exchanged or am some kind of stand in or just those soya pieces you buy when u dnt have cash for chicken but when chicken comes you ditch the soya (unless ure vegan).
Its not funny ala!
Would have been a heart break if I had a heart to break. JK,it takes a lot to break my heart lol, it was a jab to my self esteem….so I guess I’m not as amazing as he said I was…or maybe I’m not amazing enough?
It’s all good….even though it doesn’t feel like,it is all good.
The darkest hour’s just before the day.
Remember March 8 2012. God restored me. Psalm 71
I’m searching for a deep connection, my heart is open, I need that sweet affection, I’m so true it’s past your comprehension, hurt once, so my intentions aren’t clear, it’s fear that holds me back, and I don’t know who to trust, I don’t know if I should take a chance, because the pain will be just too much, I feel heroic, I want a happy ending, I mean, I want someone special to compliment me, I’m down for you, so notice me, lets put our pasts aside, and work together to build a future, just you and I.
Shame all my posts have been about my hair journey lol XD oh weelll…
I’m thinking about big chopping earlier than planned but we’ll see…transitions huh…
I’m in university now…pretty soon school will take over my life!
Following on from my tweet earlier, here’s my story :) At first I wasn’t sure if I should be speaking about my uterus on the account that it might make people uncomfortable, embarrassed blah blah blah but then it hit me! Every woman has a uterus and everyone knows we have a uterus so what’s the…
Never happened to me but I love her openness!
Memories sinkin’, deep in, leakin’ in my mine,
All of the time tried to forget you,
Thought I could get you to be mine.
Memories sinkin’, deep in, leakin’ in my mine,
All of the time I can’t forget to,
Tried to forget you in my mine
Pretend to not have the patience,
Pretend that there is enough time for waiting,
Remembering when we kept it a basic,
I wanna go back so that I could taste it
What do I care for?
You are not there anymore?
I was not careful,
And its all your fault,
You let me fall
I’ll be all right,
I will be just fine
I’ll be OK,
Once you get out my mind
tsk…
Thandie Newton Transitioned! :D yay!!!
I’ve still got so many people to visit but I’m so broke!
Anyway,last night I had a weird dream and I was telling myself to buy organic products for my hair…lol
So here’s my shopping list….
2 spray bottles
2 oil bottles
1 Organics Shampoo
1 Organics Rinse out conditioner
1 Leave-in conditioner(the one I have don’t know it’s name :p)
1 Extra-Virgin Olive Oil
1 Pure Castor Oil
1 Pure coconut oil
1 Pure glycerin
1 Aloe Vera Juice
(my moisturizer is water)
1 Ecostyler gel….
That’s been my hair regimen the passed 3 months and it has worked so far,used to use shea butter but its expensive!
Need to print this out lol